truth in its purity.

Alive and breathing for 19 years , going onto 20, and determined to lead an honest and prosperous life from here on out, I ve come to a set conclusion that Im truly blessed with the people I have in my life now and yes BABE that includes you.Really. Yes , I ve had my shares of heartaches and breakups. I've been so selfish with others without caring about one's own feelings that it did'nt really matter to me.Plenty of empty promises and dishonesty.I ' ve been through it all , been there done that and Im proud to say that I ve grown up and still have a significant amount of growing up to do to say the least. I 've done alot of thinking the past few months about the close knit group of friends I have and yes I 've fucked them over numerous times but they really know how to forgive an super imperfect guy like me. Eon and I were talking about how they always take me back no matter what I've done to them , just like family.They're always there whenever I needed a quick laugh or when I have problems with my pops and always offered a place for me to stay whenever I had trouble at home.The other friendships and relationships that have failed in the past I seem to find myself crawling back to them. These are the set of friends I want for the rest of my life.Most of the time I take them from granted but recently I 've come to realize I really have the best friends that a guy can ask for. I'd like to tell them one day in words perhaps over a glass of wine and a seafood dinner , or at my kid's birthday party about how they really define the true meaning of friendship.

Sitting in my car in the blistering cold weather, me and Eon were talking about my girlfriend and how everything everything is with her. Id like to emphasize the fact that she's not just any girl that Im fooling around with and a girl that Im just going to push aside later on and on to the next one you know?I've been there done that and ready to open a new chapter in my life.For once I could truly not lie to myself and say she's definitely a keeper<3. I finally found someone who really appreciates my weirdness :)I can ramble on and on about her being my everything and all.But really though , actions do speak louder then words.From suprising her at work to waking up my lazy ass at 7 am to ask her to be my girlfriend I can also truly say that she 's not just another girl to me but a girl that I can proudly claim as my girlfriend:) I know I don't look like Chad Michale Murray of your other boyfriend , Paul Walker, or that fruit cake Robert Pattinson but you can say Im close right? :p I know she 's heard the phrase , " Words can't describe how I feel about you " , well .... words REALLY can't describe how I feel about you . really.

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